touch me : hold me
wearable shrine soft sculpture
Made with shreds of my mother’s sari this wearable shrine asks you to touch and hold it. Do shrines have to be in hard masculine materials only? This one is delicate, vulnerable and aged. Its materials tell their own stories of collective heritage and shared memory. I am interested in the visceral feeling the form and texture evokes. Who wears this shrine? Touch and being touched have a political history in this country. Whose desires get expressed, and whose are repressed? I am interested in questioning the monolithic idea of femininity and its fixed set limits. Can play be a form of ritual? I wish to raise questions on politics of rituals. Who is included and who is left at the peripheries. If everything is divine and nothing is sacred, I choose to make rituals around tenderness and intimacy. Femininity is an entangled phenomenon. My choice of soft materials speaks to many generations of women who used stitching, weaving, knitting and embroidery as a means of self-expression in collective culture and memory. I use these tools of mending, healing and a repetitive meditative practice as a medium to create my shrine. Transforming found material I am looking for ways to decolonize the ruptures caused by systematic erasures. The sound is my voice singing myself a lullaby in my mother tongue. I wished to create a visceral space for softness. Can tenderness and intimacy be acts of resistance? As a child for me my mother’s sari flowing edge was my idea of a safe space. In contemporary India every hour one woman dies due to domestic violence and every hour two women / girls are raped (as per national crime records statistics 2022). This is not accounting for blatant sexual abuse, violence, acid attacks, harassment, non cis gendered violence and intersectional / caste / gender based discrimination on day to day basis. In this vitriolic environment there is schematic erasure of expressed feminine desire and longing. Through my work I wish to open dialogue on the entangled schema of imposed identity, heritage of materials, lineages and post humanist feminism through the overarching lens of memory.